I am your child

I am your child
„I am the doubt
I am the doubt that stands for:
I'm smoking
I'm drinking
I am not perfect
I am elder
I am inadequate
I am capricious
I don't know if I can, want and should give as much of me.
I don't know, if I could make disorder to the line of generations.
I don't know, if a pregnant woman shouldn't be younger and more naive.
I ask myself, if I could be a good mother
I ask myself, if as a mother I could be a good woman
I am afraid to get my whole life in disorder
I am in fear of the time
I am in fear of the world
I am in fear of myself
So I am in fear of you.“

(pause)

„I am your child
I don't claim anything of you
There are no bad children
and so no bad mothers
I know the doubt!
I know the question mark
and I know the fear
since the very beginning.
They never crossed my way
But your.
I never wanted to arrive at fear
Never wanted to get in doubt
I only wanted to come.
I want to you.
I want that you see me.
I want to be in your arms
I want to make you being my mother
I want that you feel me now,
that you can smell me.
I want that you let me in
Look, how your heart opens its door.
Bit by bit.
I want to stay at your heart.
I know
it will be as it always has been
I know
that I am just your child
not more and not less
not to early
not to late
but now.
I know the mother in you.
And I know my father.
You are where I belong to
Because I am just me
And you are just you
I don't apply for any contitions
to none and anyone.
Not to me, neither to you.
I am here and now.
Time is always here and now.
Time is good.
You are good.
I am good.
All is good.“

(translation: Gina)